adventures in film– looking through the lense of borderline personality disorder
I used to do this on my old website a lot and I’m so happy to be bringing it back. When I’m not writing about BPD or doing my social work thaang, I’m trying to take photos as much as possible. I shoot with a Canon t-70 and hustle my ass down to my local London Drugs to spend my pennies on developing film. Theres an old man there that always tries so earnestly to get me to obtain some sort of rewards membership. I have yet to do so, and it gets more awkward everytime. Here’s some of the last roll he developed for me.
It was a summerroll of sorts. and it reminds me that despite the episodes and the turmoil that came with this summer, I had a damn good time through the best of it. all these photos make me feel like a kid again, and developing them and sprawling them out on my bed made me feel like I had tangible nostalgia that hadn’t even escaped my psyche yet. which is a wild feeling. Developing film gives you that. Its different from saving something to your camera roll, because there’s a purpose for each frame. You didn’t just pull out your phone and snap something quick, you manually focused, set the light, picked the subject for a goddamn reason. There’s not nearly enough reason in this world anymore. But at the same time, film doesn’t have much reason either. Why spend so much extra money? Why take the extra time?